My adventures have been at a minimal over the past many months because I’ve been working insane amount of jobs/hours but, the past 6 weeks has been spectacularly…difficult. I mean, don’t get me wrong, getting my breathalyzer taken out of Misty was a major highlight, however there were just as many challenges as highlights.
It started around the second week in April when I had a SUDDEN change in living situation due to some unspoken conflict from one of my roommate. I had no idea what was going on and was completely blindsided by the whole situation and was SUDDENLY required to start a search for a new living situation.
Blessed with the world of Facebook, an opportunity opened to be able to join another community style house in a beautiful neighbor in the heart of my social and work life! Within two weeks, I was moved out, moved in, and starting a new adventure with 3 other roommates (all men- picture NEW GIRL)! We are suppose to be a house of 5 but struggling with finding a 5th roommate to join our community. What started as a challenge, as room searching/house hunting typically is, eventually has turned into a new adventure and quite a lot of laughter.
THEN…within the last week of May, I, unfortunately, was laid off from my position at the non-profit skilled nursing home I began working out in November due to low census, which basically means not enough work for 2 full time Speech Language Pathologist. If you have been laid off then you know what a mental blow to the self-esteem it is and what heartbreaking news it is to realize you DON’T have a full-time job any more. I don’t think I’ve exhibited this type of heartbreak, mental sadness, or just plain feeling of being unwanted.
I know, I know, I know. It’s not like I didn’t have a job or I wasn’t able to find work but I honestly felt at home at this building and finally thought I had found a place that I could see myself staying for MANY years. I had a hard time heading into work knowing it was coming to an end and leaving patients that I have grown to love working with and helping them in whatever area they needed. My co-workers, especially the other SLP, were so caring, loving and just wonderful humans to be around. They were beyond supportive in my departure but it didn’t make it any easier.
Entering into work on my last day, though bittersweet, something overcame me and I knew I’d be okay. I had started picking up work-shifts at my other positions which would help me make it though the next couple of months and since exiting work, I’ve had this esteemed peace about where my life has lead me. It’s unbelievable that even in those moments that I feel lost, hurt, damaged, and let-down, God comes at me full-fledge and reminds me that He is in control and that He has a plan. God’s plan for me hasn’t quite been made known but I’m more at peace with listening to Him and learning to let Him guide me into this unknown realm, known as “reality”.
***3 week update*** Still no “full-time” job, but applications are flying and interviews are being had…hopeful is still remaining my favorite word.
Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
Romans 12:12 “Rejoice in hope be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer”